Sadness

Once again I feel this unpleasant, unwanted feeling. It consumes me n myself of my awareness that I pledged to myself before not to fall again. I never have ill thought and put my trust in something that I should not do. It just this is simply unbelievable, unacceptable thing that could ever happened. Why it should be me? It was so fast that I cant even have the time to say a word that wander in my heart, what I thought, there is no chance to listen, no chance for anything, it feels like a bullet through my chest and there is nothing there but to accept. I cried. It feels like I lost someone important to me. It feels almost like when my bro left me. I know that this thing is way more useless compare to that. Way different. As I am at that very very moment just realize who I have been, why I have enslaved myself to this temporary feeling. When I close my eyes, I know I have been left out here alone. This life is not a fairytale, I dont believe in such anymore. Patience is what I need. I really believe patience is the only thing I got now. This scar will show where I have been in my sails.

"As Tears Go By" Original Rolling Stones Version

God damn it. I love this song so much. It reminds me of the beautiful of life. I learn it from watching tv series House. What would you do if you are going to die within minutes? And your beloved ones are all around you. What would you say? What would you feel? I wonder this unimaginable situation. Would in the brink of death makes me realized everything? I continue to wonder...

So I am here listening this song appreciating everything that has been given to me by Allah Almighty. My family, my beloved one, my friends, my health, my happiness. I am truly grateful and I pray that I will be always grateful. Amin. :)

As tears go by...

Black Sheep - Metric cover by MC & Eric

God damn it they play this song well. The sound is nice and I really like this song. Chord chord chord please!